I'm Afraid to Even Say it Out Loud

But I think I've made some progress on the book. I've been really agonizing over the form it's going to take, especially the very beginning, and I think I've figured something out. That's all I'll say right now.

Last night we had a great time at dinner. I forgot what it's like to just hang out and get away from work.  How can I be so lazy and undisciplined and such a workaholic at the same time? I get nervous when I'm away from work/writing/grading for very long. I need practice at having fun. Pitiful.